October. Wow. This morning I realized that it has been a year this month since we moved into this house. A year. A year that flew by. A year that was filled with life changing events. A year that changed our marriage, our hearts, our faith, and our lives forever. The year that we opened our business. The year that we found our church. The year that we had our son, and the year that we lost him. The year that will mark the birth of two of our children and the year that Jesus took them both home. A year that will go down in the books as one of the longest, one of the shortest, one of the hardest, one of the happiest and one of the most tragic years that we have lived thus far. 2010 will not be forgotten in the Hall house but I assure you that we will be welcoming 2011 with open arms.
Today is October 4th. It's the birthday of one of my oldest and dearest friends. If I were home I am sure that we would be planning a night out together with three of our closest friends. They are planning, I am in TN wishing I could go. Slowly I am accepting that this is my home now. That there will be moments missed and events that we cannot make. But I know that we will have our own parties, our own moments that we will share with the people around us. Is it the same? No. But that doesn't mean it's not equally as wonderful, just different.
As the end of the year comes at me like a hurricane, I see the holidays in the distance. I realize that this year I will be home for Thanksgiving, but not for Christmas. This year Christmas will be spent in Alabama. This will be the first Christmas in 35 years that I do not see my parents, my sister, or my brother. The first year in a long time that I miss the flank steak and twice baked potatoes at the Stewart house. It's a fitting end to 2010, the year of different and wonderful.
It's cool here. Winter is coming quick and we are trying our best to enjoy being outside as much as possible before cabin fever catches us!! The last two weeks have been a lot of fun. We have made new friends, enjoyed Uncle Brett who came to visit us, planned a trip to the beach with Janet, and watched a lot of good football. Our lives have been as close to normal as they have been since we have moved here. It feels wonderful and like a ticking time bomb all at the same time! October - December bring a lot of trips for daddy and three or four for the girls and I. It will be very busy!! I am praying for health and safe travels. One thing that 2010 has taught me is that the rest really does not matter.
There are a few things that are on my heart that I am trying to give to Him so that I can rest. I know that He can do a lot better with them than I can. I am praying incessantly that He will take them because truthfully they are not decisions that I can make or things that I can change.
Matthew 6:33-34 Tell us:
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
Amen! This is what we are doing here in Franklin TN. 2010 has shown us that there is more truth to these verses than we ever realized. I miss my little boy and the baby behind him. I realize now what a miracle these girls really are and I am trying my best to soak them up like gravy with a biscuit everyday and let tomorrow worry about itself.
Love and Blessings,